Really shouldn't have looked at Julie's profile, but curiosity got the best of me. I had a dream last night that I bought a house from her (what the hell?). Thinking about her made me think back to all the second chances I had with her even though I acted like a jackass. Bumping into her over and over again on campus, but never telling how I felt, never apologizing for making her upset until the last time I bumped into her a month before graduation. Again, I had another chance last year when she was reading through my blogs for some reason. I could have sent a message or something, but I let my pride decide not to. So many second chances squandered. The same thing happened with Katherine years ago when I kept bumping into her at CCSF. It's almost like fate or the universe keeps giving me another chance, but I have to be the one to take it. Too bad I keep fucking it up.
I wish I could go back in time and change absolutely every screw up I did, but this is the path I have chosen so I'll have to deal with it. Hopefully there are more opportunities in the future.
Speaking of determining my own fate, I have accomplished most of the goals I have set for myself during my last year at UCSD, Aside from passing the CPA exam, I was accepted into every graduate program I applied to and this internship is pretty much like a full time job. I'll have to set more goals for the next few years. First and foremost I have to move out of my parents' house.
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