It's been a couple of days into my work at CCSF. Not much to do except sit around and surf the internet. I did screw up some times though when answering the telephone but I'm getting better at it and I'm becoming more outgoing. Good I guess.
I've been surfing the internet and visiting reddit more and more, specifically on the morbidreality subreddit. Not exactly the healthiest of habits. One of the things I found was this:
http://www.reddit.com/r/MorbidReality/comments/1hbcyr/been_living_as_a_shut_in_since_1999_forum_post/
It was a post about people with such a high level of social anxiety that they cannot leave their house and barely have a functional life. They're already in their 30s and they are still living with their parents and cannot move beyond what they know. Absolutely frightening, it is the future I envisioned myself in when I was at UCSD. It is the reason why I started my program and my previous blog three years ago. Though my condition is not as bad as theirs, my future still might converge with theirs'. I need to keep pushing forward and not end up like that. I hope I can succeed, and I hope they get the help they need.
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