Internship, Reflection

I finally got an internship.  After signing a whole bunch of papers, I was officially hired and I'm going to start next Monday.  Finally.  I can't believe that I got it, I spent an entire summer applying for accounting internships with only a few responding, but ended up bombing every interview.  I apply for one IT internship and immediately got the job.  I chose the wrong fucking major when I applied to UCSD several years ago.  Even though I'm elated, I still got the feeling that they hired me because they had no choice.  They stated that only a handful applied for the position and that I was the first to be interviewed or something like that.  Though I preferred to be hired based on merit, I guess I should consider myself lucky.  Downside of this was that I had to cancel two other interviews.  I was suppose to interview for a government research analyst position, which would have put my economics degree to work, and another accounting internship.  I doubt I would have been hired for those, but I still wonder if I made a mistake.

Though my professional development is back on track, I can't say the same for my social development.  As noted in my previous posts, all my bad little habits that I have tried to get rid of throughout my time at UCSD is coming back.  I don't think I'll ever be able to fix myself no matter how hard I try.  Even if I do, I don't think I can ever truly integrate myself back into society.