I'm getting more and more frustrated as time goes on. A long time ago when I was at UCSD, I decided check on the progress of people I have met in the past. Everybody is moving on with their lives, they're working on their careers, getting promotions, even starting families, but here I am doing absolutely nothing. It's absolutely frustrating. Reviewing my interviews over and over again has me kicking myself. So many times I fucked it up. I can't believe my shitty personality is now costing me the ability to get a job/internship. I should have dealt with fixing my personality years ago even before arriving at UCSD, but I kept putting it off again and again. Now I'm going to grad school when I don't really want to. A long time ago, I wrote about being afraid of being alone and over-educated, but now it looks more and more like it's going to be my future I am afraid of what's to come.
Several weeks ago, researchers found that interviews tend to favor extroverted narcissists. I guess I have to become one to get a job. Several new opportunities and internship popped up and I'll be applying. Whether it's more opportunities to succeed is questionable.
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