My Best Years Are Behind Me, Alone

I've come to the realization that I'm all alone in this world.  Throughout the last ten years, suicide has been on the back of my mind, slowly growing, enveloping every thought that I had.  I've become more and more detached from the world and the people around me, even with family.  Now, I'm at a point where I'm pretty much all alone.  Though I hated being surrounded by morons when I was at UCSD, I enjoyed my time there.  I realize now that my time at UCSD was the best years of my life.  And now it's all gone.  I think it's time to die.