I've been preparing for grad school applications for the last few weeks and will go into full gear in February. A part of me simply doesn't want to do it and to simply give up. I can't, I must keep marching forward.
I'm a failure. I see myself as one and I feel like one. Ever since graduating from UCSD, I've been stuck in a rut in what to do next. I did not make any long term friends at UCSD aside from one, and even then I feel like he sees me as a friend of convenience. Wendy, my closest friend since middle school might be tired of me. She calls on Skype often and from time to time, I didn't realize she called and didn't pick up. She might be tired of me and I wouldn't blame her. I shouldn't have contacted her, every relationship I've been in whether it be platonic or romantic, ends up crashing and burning. It's no different with her.
Good luck Wendy.
Note to self: Keep on marching forward.
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