The last three weeks have irked me like crazy. Three different hits that all have the signature of Julie. To recap:
Two weeks ago on Friday, there were two iPhone views between 5 and 6 pm on my old blog with no associated post or keywords, indicating that the person found my blog directly through google. It could have been a person who stumbled upon my blog by chance, but it could also be someone who knows my blog.
Last Friday, there were two chrome and one internet explorer views from two Windows and one Macintosh on my old blog. No associated post or keywords. If it was Macintosh with chrome then it would have been a spam bot, but the spam bot always associated with one post. If it was Macintosh with internet explorer then it could possibly be Julie. A long time ago when she invited me over for food, I noticed that she used a white polycarbonate Macbook. White polycarbonate Macbooks are discontinued and permanently stuck on OSX 10.6.8. Internet explorer (surprisingly) was available for Macs up to OSX 10.6.8 so she could be using that. Of the three views, one was between 7 to 8 pm and the other two were between 3 to 4 am. Which views belong to which time I'm unsure.
This Monday was the weirdest hit. Between 9 to 10 pm Pacific time, there was one pageview coming from a Macintosh with Safari for this blog. What's weird is that it didn't come through google at all. It was a direct access to this blog, the person typed in this blog's address directly. Again no associated post or keywords. Possible non-Julie explanation is that several weeks ago there were 17 iPad hits all on a post about people I bumped into in the past. In that post I mentioned several people by name so it could possibly be one of them.
All three events came from the United States. After the whole NSA/Edward Snowden fiasco, every company decided to encrypt their search data, which limits what blogger can see. Absolutely frustrating, if blogger can get the names of the computers or other information, analysis would be so much easier.
Sigh, this is pathetic, I'm sitting in bed analyzing web traffic on a Friday night, on the eve of Valentine's Day no less, chasing a digital ghost hoping that it's the woman who rejected me two and a half years ago is the one who's been visiting. Life can't get lower than that. Part of me wants to go on Facebook and send her a message asking "Is this you?", but things ended really badly between me and her when we were at UCSD. So badly that she told me to never message her again. So badly that she deleted her Facebook account. Even if I chose to message her, I can't. I went on Facebook one and a half weeks ago to try to search her up. After typing in her name in the search bar, all I got were a bunch of random people. I guess it's the little spark of optimism inside me that is making me see patterns. If she truly wanted to reconnect with me, she would have done so through Linkedin or left a message on this blog or something. Unless there's more data from somewhere, I'm writing these hits off as some random occurrence, as some sadistic joke by the universe.
It's been two and a half years since she and I graduated from UCSD. It's been one and a half years since she visited this blog. It's been one and a half month since I looked at her profile on Linkedin and one month since I told myself to move on. It's time to truly move on.
A long time ago, she told me her birthday was February 6th, if I recall correctly. I just realized that I never told her happy birthday when we were still at UCSD. Julie, wherever you are, happy 26th birthday.
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