Several years ago when I was still at UCSD, I thought that I had avoidant personality disorder. It means that whenever I see someone I know I would avoid them at all cost and would hide rather than talk to them. After seeing a psychologist at UCSD and him acknowledging that I do suffer from it, I have been trying to deal with it for the last three years. Over the last three years I have been more and more successful in combating this problem and it felt like it was dissipating. However, in the past couple of weeks, I noticed myself becoming more and more avoidant of the people I know, especially the people I work with. In one case I avoided the IT manager at my work place and I think he noticed it. Though I said hi to him the next time I saw him, I can't help but feel that it made him upset. I hope it didn't jeopardize anything. I hope I'm not reverting back to what I was before, I'll have to keep working on it.
On another note, more and more companies are contacting me through the my bloomberg account, though many of them prefer to remain anonymous. I don't know if it should give me hope or make me despair since none have done anymore aside from requesting my resume after looking at my profile.
Note to self: Eliminate avoidant disorder.
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