Rejecting Others Before They Reject Me

About a month ago, I was seeing a psychologist at CCSF.  Only two sessions and not really much help.  Even though it was pretty much a waste of time, she did make one good point.  She said that I was rejecting people before they rejected me.  She said it could be due to lack of internal confidence.  Is it possible?  Am I subconsciously rejecting others before they could reject me?  Maybe.  I guess it's something I should work on.

Note to self:  Don't reject others.

The Mall

I decided to go to the local mall today.  Stonestown Galleria is what it's called.  I didn't buy anything or do much besides walking around and checking out the various stores.  The place was packed full of people and the chatter was simply overwhelming.  I bought some food from Panda Express which reminded me of my time at UCSD.  Eating alone in a food court packed full of people was...jarring.  I don't really know how to explain it, it just felt empty.  Maybe this is what the rest of my life is going to be like.