Another Year, Another Beginning

It's new years eve.  Neither me nor my folks are planning anything special tonight.  To us, it's just another night.

There's not much to write about in the last week or so, hell, there's not much to write about throughout this blog, don't even know why I started it.  The last few days, I've been helping a friend I met at UCSD prepare for grad school applications and helping him correct his personal statement.  It felt good to hear from him again.  Like him, I'm going to be applying to grad school soon so I should prepare.  Anyways, it's a new year, a new beginning, hopefully I get into the schools I want to.

Note to self:  Lose weight, do better.

Working With Another Introvert

The fall semester at CCSF is now over  I passed my classes with all A's, I believe.  There isn't much that I can write about since I didn't have much social interaction this semester.  It'll probably be the same next semester since I'm doing mostly online classes.  There was something notable in past few months however.

At the end of the semester of my Java class, we had to group up in order to do a project and I was assigned to a group with another guy and one girl.  The guy was apathetic and didn't really say much so me and the girl did most of the talking.  When the professor came by, the girl asked the professor if she could work alone since she was an introvert and felt more comfortable working alone.  I wasn't offended, guessing that's my psychological reprogramming working, because I realized she was telling the truth.  The whole time I was  talking to her, her body language, eye movement etc.  were signs of anxiety.  Talking to her was like looking at a mirror image of myself.  It was both stunning and confounding at the same time.  Despite her hesitation, we managed to get our work done.  I managed to get a 100 on the individual portion of our project.

Note to self:  Keep practicing social skills.

Depression

I'm suffering from depression.  Ever since graduating from UCSD, I've been slowly slipping further and further into depression.  It took hold bit by bit until it held on and didn't let go.  I've gained back all the weight I lost during my three years at UCSD and I'm simply unmotivated to lose it.

Despite my depression, I'm still doing well in my classes and every now and then, there's something that brings a little joy into my life.  About a week ago, UC Riverside created an account graduate school account for me to help fast track my application in applying.  I hope I get accepted.